a forward

ughhh. we were up 3-1, and lost 3 straight, with our aces going in the 1st 2 games. business as usual in cleveland. i may be over 2,000 miles away and call tucson my home, but i bet i hurt as much, if not more, than most back home. i watched the game at home and alone (by choice) last night. i literally had to hold back tears. even while i was watching MST3K to cheer me up. good thing it is just a game.

in the much bigger and grander scheme of things:

i received a forward a couple of days back. by now, i mostly delete them. there was a period where i shuffled them off as soon as i received them. boy, how times have changed. anyway, this was one of those sappy and spiritual ones. some actually are good. at first i decided it was not worthy of being passed on. but it was one that was profound enough for me not to delete it. then the seed sprouted into the message.

the analogy followed a man who had died. he was travelling down a road by foot with his dog, who was the first one to pass away. they come to a place that appears to be heaven. this is confirmed by the man standing next to the pearly gates. the one thing, he was told his dog could not enter, not even just for water.

the man decides he must find his dog agua, and moves on. they come to a much more dilapidated looking place. the man at the gate there says that both him and his dog are welcome to get some water. after getting their H2O, the man inquires to where they are at. the man replies heaven. the man at the gate does not care that hell claims to be heaven because anyone who would leave their best friend behind does not really is not a heaven-kind-of-guy.

i love the thought that the pearly gates truly are hell's domain. it does seem like the easy way is often times the wrong way. the pg's seem to represent the longing for luxury and comfort that is satiated thru one's selfishness. it is all about the choices we make. i cannot even express in words the profoundness of these thoughts.

so there it is, my deep thoughts on this monday of sorrow.

i have to watch a movie about artist alex grey.